Saturday, September 11, 2010

Postings 9/11/10

I have been writing posts over the past week, but not publishing them until I knew that everyone who would read the blog and "needed to know" knew beforehand.

I dated them so you can read back and see what's been going on here in baby blog world. It is an exciting, yet nervous time for me.

It is completely unfair what having a miscarriage (or two) does for your confidence in a new pregnancy. I am constantly arguing against my hopeful thoughts with disclaimers of "we'll see" and I find myself really overreacting to very minor symptoms. Things that if a miscarriage had never happened would be totally FINE.

But, I am forever changed, and I can't help that. I just stay in prayer that I can be patient and trusting.

I know without a shadow of a doubt that I may regret saying this later... but I THINK I wish that I would start throwing up. It's supposed to be a good sign. :)

1 comment:

Brandi said...

Hi ~ I just saw your comment over at Courtney's blog and I wanted to give you some encouragement.

5 years ago, we thought my son would be an only child. He was 5 and we had gone through 3 miscarriages since he was born (and another before he came along).

But God is good! Today, I am pregnant with my 5th child. I now have children ages 10, 4, 2, and 9 months, and new baby due in April.

I feel so blessed...and even more so after having lost 4 babies. Each one is a pure miracle. And I have a nursery-full waiting for me in heaven!

I hope all is well with you and your baby. I will be praying for you. Just know, God has a plan and his plans are ALWAYS the best ones...even if we don't understand.